Freak show

Well, court sucked. Somehow we became the incompetant, babbling, drooling, root of all evil bad guys. Quite literally. I am a "monster", I am "mean" because I make a then 13 year old clean out the litter box 1 time a week. Hitler & Mussolini WHO? They have nothing on me. The accusations that I heard that came from their mouthes were terrible. I have never been so shaken, unnerved, and rocked to my very soul. I know the step mother is always the easiest target especially when they have been as vocal as I have in the past about the help they need, the routine and discipline they required. And their 2 natural parents are probably the most passive parents I have ever encountered.

I was completely and totally thrown to the wolves on this one. I should have expected it more, I guess. But, then again, I thought I might be dealing with people who have a shred of integrity between them. WRONG AGAIN! Also, interestingly, I found out that I am the cause of all the problems in their life. Not the fact that their mother abandoned them, made promises she couldn't keep, lied to them, no no no. It';s all me. And you know what? I can put my head on my pillow every night and know I did the best I could at the time with what I thought I knew. Did I make all the right choices and do the right things all the time? Hell no. Did I apologize and change my ways? Yep. Is that little fact remembered? HAHAHAHAHAHAHA -no.

We were told by the G.A.L. that she is pretty sure in her mind she is going to allow the move. So, J and I spoke last night, and think we are ready to put a period at the end of this freak show. Enough is enough. The past 2 plus years we have been focused on what is best for J Jr & K, and now it is time to focus on what is best for US. Our marriage has suffered, our egos are shattered, and I fear some of this crap will somehow have a lasting effect on O. I hope not, but time will tell.